Weakness...

His Word says that we should live in a holy, reverent fear of the Lord, and not fear man. But therein lies a struggle for me.

Insecurities; caring too much about "what other people think"; being afraid to look stupid (hard to believe, but true...)... I've struggled with these issues alot. I find myself always wanting to make people happy, always wanting to please people. And being afraid, too afraid of people not liking me at times.

And I think, this is what really got to me today. Like I was allowing my mind to play tricks on me, I got intimidated by the situation. I was sooo afraid of "screwing up" that I actually did. It wasn't major, but I let myself get affected too easily.

I HATE to disappoint people. I HATE to know that I've let someone down. And I've let many people dear to me down over the years. I need to know I can't always please everyone...

This can't go on... I'm turning around. Hanging on to His every word. He alone is my identity. He alone defines who I am and what I do. He alone deserves my all...

I'm desperate... for HIS GLORY


Lord, I surrender
May I seek to put YOU above everyone and everything else in my life
May I be desperately passionate for YOU and YOU ALONE
May I seek to please YOU before any man
Give me the courage in the face of adversity and struggle
You are my ROCK.....